Damn forever

Inspired by my sister-in-law, I have decided to be disciplined about my blogging and keep at it. Since 2 people read it, if that many, I figure this is a perfect place practice and recreate my writing style, rediscover the talent that seems to have left me while I was sleeping through my youth.

So here is my latest, fresh off my One Note page, while working on a Sunday night. Boy meets girl. Boy and girl are friends. Boy and girl are more than friends. Boy leaves, without a word. And girl is just, well.. it's not a new story. And it's not an uncommon one. But amazingly enough, that doesn't make it less painful.

I didn't even move and just
Like that you're gone forever
Wait, that seems so long
Weren't we supposed to
Be great together, be
Friends long after all the rest
Faded? But you just left
Without a word or trace
Forever. The word seems
All wrong and so final
For something this important
For what we were
It's one of those words,
Like infinity or eternity
They aren't real, they’re just
Exaggerations, mutations of a
Concept humans pretend to comprehend
Or so I used to think
But you really are gone and
This really is forever..
While I miss you and obsess
You just move on, confess
Am a bit dazed so tell me
Should I try to stop you
Ask you where you're going
And why? Or do I let you fly
Out of my world, my mind
Into the black, forget
We met, or that we cared
Erase the time, moments shared
Do I go to you and ask you to stay
Or stay myself as you go away.

This is a style I've been trying to master for a while. I'm sure it has a better name than the one I give it but, the effect it's supposed to have is like someone received a blow to the head and is in that in between space between being awake and seeing stars, can't thread thoughts together in a sequence but instead, just flits between the thoughts that keep him spiraling downwards.